FBI Documents Link 9/11 to Florida Businessman

Esam Ghazzawi and his family ‘fled’ just before the attacks

By Neal Colgrass,  Newser Staff

Posted May 10, 2014 4:30 PM CDT

(Newser) – Looks like a wealthy Florida family had direct connections to the 9/11 hijackers and fled the US just days before the Twin Towers fell, the Miami Herald reports. According to highly redacted FBI documents released yesterday by the Justice Department, the family of “an allegedly wealthy international businessman” connected with the Saudi royal family abandoned their house in Sarasota, Fla., on or around August 27, 2001. They left behind valuable items—including furniture, clothes, and three cars, Broward Bulldog notes—so it seems they left without much preparation.

The businessman’s name is blanked out, but a separate FBI form names Esam Ghazzawi, adviser to a top Saudi prince and owner of the Sarasota house, where he lived with his daughter and her husband. Law enforcement sources have already pointed to evidence that hijack pilot Mohamed Atta, former al-Qaeda leader Adnan Shukrijumah, and other suspected terrorists had visited the house, but the FBI never revealed Ghazzawi’s name to congressional investigators or the 9/11 commission. Ghazzawi’s son-in-law, Abdulaziz al-Hijji, said last year they only moved so al-Hijji could work at the Saudi oil company Aramco in England. He called the 9/11 attacks “a crime against the USA and all humankind.” (Freedom of Information litigation filed by Broward Bulldog got the latest documents released, and up to 80,266 more FBI pages could be made public at the discretion of a US district judge in Florida.)


World Peace Is None Of Your Business Lyrics

World Peace Is None Of Your Business
words by Morrissey

You must not tamper with arrangements
Work hard and sweetly pay your taxes
Never asking what for

….oh no you poor little fool, oh no you fool.

World Peace Is None of Your Business

Police will stun you with their  stun guns or they’ll disable you with tasers
thats what governments for
oh no you poor little fool, oh no you fool

World Peace is non of your business, so would you kindly keep your nose out
the rich must profit and get richer
and the poor will stay poor

oh no you poor little fool oh no you fool

Each time you vote you support the process..Brazil and Bahrain. Oh Egypt, Ukraine oh so many people in pain

But no more you poor little fool, no more you fool


Neil Degrasse Tyson “Then the upper floors fall straight down in a demolition-style implosion”

The Horror, The Horror
September 12, 2001 in the Read section

First-hand account of the WTC attacks and subsequent evacuation from Lower Manhattan residence. A heavily forwarded e-mail that became the subject of an article in the Wall Street Journal a week later on the widespread use of the web to communicate the tragic news of the day.

My entire family is safe. We evacuated our lower-Manhattan residence at about noon yesterday and migrated north on foot to Grand Central Terminal (about three miles) where we took Metro North to the home of my parents in Westchester, from where I write this message.

We live four blocks from the World Trade Center, in view of both Towers, City Hall, and City Hall Park. I happened to be working at home yesterday. My wife went to work at 8:20AM. I left at the same time to vote in NYC’s Mayoral Primary. My 9-month old son was at home with our nanny. My 5-year old daughter was attending her second day of Kindergarten at PS-234, three blocks from World Trade Center. Lineup time in the yard was 8:40AM in full view of WTC 1.

When the first plane hit at 8:50, they evacuated the school without incident. I noticed WTC 1 on fire in a high floor upon returning from voting, about 8:55AM. Large crowds of onlookers were gathering along the base of City Hall Park as countless fire engines, police cars, and ambulances screamed past.

I went home, grabbed my camcorder, went out to the street and started filming. I consider myself to be emotionally strong. What I bore witness to, however, was especially upsetting, with indelible images of horror that will not soon leave my mind.

1) I first see WTC 1 on fire at a high floor. Not just flames coming out of some windows, but four or five entire floors on fire with smoke penetrating floors still higher.

Upsetting enough, but then…

2) Among the papers and melted steel fragments fluttering to the ground, I notice that some debris was falling distinctly differently. These weren’t parts of the building that were falling. These were people, jumping from the windows, their bodies tumbling in rapid descent from the eightieth floor. I noticed about ten such falls, morbidly capturing three of them on tape.

Upsetting enough, but then…

3) A fiery explosion burst forth from a corner of WTC 2 about two thirds of the way up, perhaps the 60th floor. The fireball created an intense radiative impulse of heat from which we all had to turn our heads. From my vantage point, I could not see the plane that caused it, which hit 180 degrees on the other side of the building. Nor did I know at the time that a plane caused it. I first thought it was a bomb, but the explosion was not accompanied by the tell-tale acoustic shockwave that rattles windows. This was simply a low frequency rumble.

As it burst from the building’s corner, the fireball was so large that it extended all the way across to WTC 1. The fact the building’s corner exploded tells me that the ignited jet fuel got focused by the sides of the floor into which the second plane flew, meeting at the corner with increased explosive pressure. The flames were accompanied by countless thousands of sheets of paper that burst forth, fluttering to the ground as though every filing cabinet on multiple floors was emptied.

The fact that the second tower was now on fire made it clear to us all on the street that the first fire was no accident and that the WTC complex was under terrorist attack. Morbidly, I have the explosion on tape and the sounds from the horrified crowd surrounding me. At this point I stopped filming, and went back inside my apartment.

Upsetting enough, but then…

4) As more and more and more and more and more emergency vehicles descended on the World Trade Center, I hear a second explosion in WTC 2, then a loud, low-frequency rumble that precipitates the unthinkable—a collapse of all the floors above the point of explosion. First the top surface, containing the helipad, tips sideways in full view. Then the upper floors fall straight down in a demolition-style implosion, taking all lower floors with it, even those below the point of the explosion. A dense, thick dust cloud rises up in its place, which rapidly pours through the warren of streets that cross lower Manhattan.

I close all our windows and blinds. As the dust cloud engulfs my building, an eerie darkness surrounded us—the kind of darkness you experience before a severe thunderstorm. I look out the window and can see no more than about 12 inches away.

Upsetting enough, but then…

5) Outside my window, after about 15 minutes, visibility grows to about 100-yards, and I notice about an inch white dust everywhere outside my window. That’s when I realize that every single rescue vehicle that had parked itself at the base of the World Trade Center must now be buried under 110 collapsed floors of tangled debris, and multiple feet of dust. This collapse took out the entire first round of rescue efforts including what were surely hundreds of police officers, firefighters, and medics.

As visibility increased and I could now see the blue sky, there was blue sky where WTC 2 used to be.

Upsetting enough, but then…

6) I decide it’s time to get my daughter, who was taken by the parents of a friend of hers to a small office building, six blocks farther from the WTC than my apartment. As I dress for survival: boots, flashlight, wet towels, swimming goggles, bicycle helmet, gloves, I hear another explosion followed by a now all-too familiar rumble that signaled the collapse of WTC 1, the first of the two towers to have been hit. I saw the iconic antenna on this building descend straight down in an implosion twinning the first.

This dust cloud was darker, thicker and faster-moving than the first. When this round of dust reached my apartment, fifteen seconds after collapse, the sky turned dark as night, with visibility of no more than about a centimeter. It was getting harder to breathe in the apartment, but we were stable.

At this point I offer no hope of survival for any of the rescue personnel who were on the scene.

Upsetting enough, but then…

7) The cloud settles once again, now leaving a total of about three inches of dust outside my window. Another dark cloud of smoke now occupies the area where two 110-story buildings once stood. This cloud, however, was not the settling kind. It was smoke from ground-level fires. At this time the air in the apartment is getting harder and harder to breathe and it becomes clear that we should evacuate—especially with the likelihood of underground gas leaks. I load up my largest backpack with survival items, put my son in our most nimble stroller and leave with our nanny, who then walks across the Brooklyn Bridge toward her home.

I go to where my daughter was held, which was upwind from all debris on a quiet street. She is in good spirits, but clearly upset. I have a crayon drawing of hers, sketched while waiting for me to arrive, which shows the Twin Towers with smoke and fire coming from them, as only a 5-year old could draw. “Daddy, why do you think the pilot drove his plane into the World Trade Center?” “Daddy, I wish this was all just a dream.” “Daddy, if we can’t return home tonight because of all the smoke, will my stuffed animals be okay?”

Upsetting enough, but then…

8) From the calm of an upholstered couch in the office where my daughter was kept, with my son under one arm and my daughter under the other, I realize that, fully loaded, each tower of the WTC holds 10,000 people. From what I witnessed, I have no reason to believe that any of them survived. In fact, I would not be surprised if the death toll reached 25-30,000. Beneath the Towers is an entire universe of six subterraneous levels containing scores of subway platforms, plus a hundred or so shops and restaurants. The Towers simply collapsed into this hole—a hole large enough to have supplied the landfill for the World Financial Center across the West Side highway from the World Trade Center.

Upsetting enough, but then…

9) I realize that if the death toll is as high as I suspect, this incident is much, much worse than Pearl Harbor, where several thousand people died. It’s more spectacularly tragic than the Titanic, the Hindenburg, Oklahoma City, car bombs, and airplane hijackings. The number of deaths in one four-hour period will be nearly half of the American death toll in all of Vietnam.

I reconnected with my wife by 4PM, meeting her just north of Union Square Park, before we hiked another mile north to Grand Central Terminal for our ride to Westchester, above New York City.

I will never be the same after yesterday, in ways that I cannot foresee. I suppose that my generation now joins the ranks of those who lived through unspeakable horrors and survived to tell about it. How naive I was to believe that the world is fundamentally different from that of our ancestors, whose lives were changed by bearing witness to the 20th century’s vilest acts of war.

Peace to you all

Neil deGrasse Tyson

New York City

The “Strategy of Tension” in the Cold War Period

Journal of 9/11 Studies,  have a new article that is a revision of an important chapter from 9/11 and American Empire: Intellectuals Speak Out. Dr. Daniele Ganser revised his chapter for use as an article at the Journal. Here’s an excerpt.

“Having examined much of the data related to the 9/11 events, I am convinced a new and thorough investigation is needed. But when I have questioned the official narrative of 9/11 in my native Switzerland I have encountered vigorous objections from people. Why would any government in the world, they have asked, attack its own population or, only slightly less criminal, deliberately allow a foreign group to carry out such an attack? While brutal dictatorships, such as the regime of Pol Pot in Cambodia, are known to have had little respect for the life and dignity of their citizens, surely a Western democracy, the thinking goes, would not engage in such an abuse of power. And if criminal elements within a Western democracy, in North America or in Europe, had engaged in such a crime, would not elected officials or the media find out and report on it? Is it imaginable that criminal persons within a government could commit terrorist operations against innocent citizens, who support the very same government with the taxes they pay every year? Would nobody notice? These are difficult questions, even for academics who specialize in the history of secret warfare. But in fact, there are historical examples of such operations being implemented by Western democracies.”



The MERS virus: been down this road before?



By Jon Rappoport

May 3, 2014



We are told the first MERS virus case has now arrived in the US. The CDC and the World Health Organization have a new potential pandemic to hype.


As I’ve documented in past articles, we’ve been down this road before. Swine Flu, West Nile, Bird Flu, SARS. All duds. All hyped to the sky…and then the case numbers are miniscule.


You could take all the deaths from these “epidemics” and put them in one small footnote of the assessment that, every year, between 300,000 and 500,000 people around the world die from ordinary regular seasonal flu.


Yes, seasonal flu, about which there is no hype.


But even, you see, with regular seasonal flu, there are gigantic lies.


In December of 2005, the British Medical Journal (online) published a shocking report by Peter Doshi, which spelled out a massive delusion, and created tremors throughout the halls of the CDC.


Here is a quote from Doshi’s report:


“[According to CDC statistics], ‘influenza and pneumonia’ took 62,034 lives in 2001-61,777 of which were attributable to pneumonia and 257 to flu, and in only 18 cases was the flu virus positively identified.”


You see, the CDC has created one category that combines flu and pneumonia deaths. Why do they do this? Because they disingenuously assume that the pneumonia deaths are complications stemming from the flu.


This is an absurd assumption. Pneumonia has a number of causes.


But even worse, in all the flu and pneumonia deaths, only 18 revealed the presence of an influenza virus.


Therefore, the CDC could not say, with assurance, that more than 18 people died of influenza in 2001. Not 36,000 deaths. 18 deaths.


Doshi continues his assessment of published CDC flu-death statistics: “Between 1979 and 2001, [CDC] data show an average of 1348 [flu] deaths per year (range 257 to 3006).” These figures refer to flu separated out from pneumonia.


This death toll is obviously far lower than the parroted 36,000 figure. However, when you add the sensible condition that lab tests have to actually find the flu virus in patients, the numbers of flu deaths plummet even further.


In other words, it’s all promotion and hype.


“Well, uh, we say that 36,000 people die from the flu every year in the US. But actually, it’s closer to 20. However, we can’t admit that, because if we did, we’d be exposing our gigantic psyop. The whole campaign to scare people into getting a flu shot would have about the same effect as warning people to carry iron umbrellas, in case toasters fall out of upper-story windows…and, by the way, we’d be put in prison for fraud.”


Press outlets are now reporting that the MERS virus has caused 401 cases of illness in the whole world, and 93 deaths. On this basis, the pandemic hype is beginning. Again.


Jon Rappoport

The author of three explosive collections, THE MATRIX REVEALED, EXIT FROM THE MATRIX, and POWER OUTSIDE THE MATRIX, Jon was a candidate for a US Congressional seat in the 29th District of California. He maintains a consulting practice for private clients, the purpose of which is the expansion of personal creative power. Nominated for a Pulitzer Prize, he has worked as an investigative reporter for 30 years, writing articles on politics, medicine, and health for CBS Healthwatch, LA Weekly, Spin Magazine, Stern, and other newspapers and magazines in the US and Europe. Jon has delivered lectures and seminars on global politics, health, logic, and creative power to audiences around the world. You can sign up for his free emails at  NoMoreFakeNews.com.



The Benghazi Scandal Is Obama’s Watergate But Worse

Global Research, May 02, 2014


A trail of emails released Tuesday appears to shed yet more light on the Benghazi cover-up story that continues to nag President Obama and then Secretary of State and current Democratic presidential hopeful Hillary Clinton. The latest exposure indicates that both Obama and Clinton knew that UN Secretary Susan Rice’s claim to the press that the attack on the Benghazi compound killing Libyan Ambassador Christopher Stevens and three other Americans was due to an anti-Moslem youtube video was a complete lie. This latest piece of incriminating evidence is what Republicans are now calling their “smoking gun” despite months that have stretched into years of the Congressional investigation led by Representative Darrel Issa (R-CA). His so called investigation that was supposed to uncover the truth behind that fateful day of September 11th, 2012 has often been labeled “a witch hunt” by Democrats and supporters of Obama and Hillary Clinton.

This week’s news may be the needed breakthrough that will ultimately lead to the unveiling of what many critics of the Obama administration have been claiming all along. And that is Obama and Hillary purposely withheld the truth from the American public for fear that it would derail Obama’s reelection less than two months after the death of the four Americans in Benghazi. In retrospect now Obama’s rush to war in Syria last September is far better understood when taking a hard look at the 2012 Benghazi embassy attack.

The so called Arab spring uprising revolts in Middle Eastern and North African nations in fact have been the result of covert manipulation by the CIA. After getting rid of our one time allies in Iraq’s Saddam Hussein and Egypt’s Hosni Mubarak, next on the US regime-change hit list came Libya’s Muammar Gaddafi. In 2007 retired General Wesley Clark revealed a neocon plan he became privy to a couple weeks after 9/11 of the ambitious Bush administration agenda to take down seven sovereign governments in the next five years that included Afghanistan, Iraq, Sudan, Somalia, Libya, Syria and Iran.

With gusto President Obama inherited this same agenda and proceeded to finish the job in removing Libya’s longtime dictator Gaddafi. And so began the NATO air bombardment of Libya killing many innocent victims that softened the resistance to an all out assault on Gaddafi’s military forces largely spearheaded by al Qaeda mercenaries from all over the Middle East as well as native Libyan al Qaeda affiliated militia groups, some from Benghazi.

In the spring of 2011 even prior to Gaddafi’s capture and killing, as an envoy to the rebel coalition the future Libyan Ambassador Christopher Stevens was sent to Benghazi, a city in eastern Libya that has long been a hotbed of Islamic extremism that includes various Al Qaeda affiliated groups and militias. Stevens spoke Arabic and had twenty years of foreign diplomatic service experience when he was selected to become the Ambassador after the fall of the Gaddafi government. The State Department resent him to work back in Benghazi rather than the Libyan capitol Tripoli to assist the area’s transition to the new puppet government the US had installed. But because Benghazi and eastern Libya had a history of resisting national governance, Stevens faced an uphill struggle and near impossible task. Beginning in June of 2012, a full three months prior to the Benghazi embassy compound attack that killed the Ambassador and three other Americans, Stevens’ requests for increased security began falling on deaf ears in Washington. Stevens’ boss, Secretary of State Hillary Clinton, failed to heed any of his increasingly urgent calls. Just days prior to the embassy onslaught, the British consulate had been attacked and all its diplomatic staff were safely evacuated away.

Last year efforts to blame Stevens for irresponsibly turning down security offered in Benghazi were anonymously leaked, insisting that the ambassador twice had turned down offers of increased military security from AFRICOM commander General Ham.

For obvious reasons the now retired general refuses to discuss what he knew or did not know of the events leading up to the Benghazi attack. However, throughout the aftermath of the Americans’ deaths, Stevens’ own deputy ambassador Gregory Hicks in Tripoli has maintained that he never knew of any such alleged offers made to Stevens for more security.

Since the strategy targeting Ambassador Stevens as the sole reason for the lack of security at his embassy compound clearly backfired, a whitewashed report was released last year by the Accountability Review Board. The two men behind this report are Hillary’s buddies Ambassador Pickering and former Joint Chiefs of Staff Admiral Mullens. Thus no surprise that they decided from the outset that it would not be necessary to even bother to interview Hillary, satisfied to blame it on lower level State Department bureaucrats’ error in judgment not to supply adequate security. The alleged failure to authorize proper military security was because the Benghazi compound was relegated to being a temporary outpost. Of course this is just another feeble attempt to shield Queen Hillary who sent Stevens herself to Benghazi fully aware of it being an al Qaeda trouble spot.

But Benghazi under the cover of the State Department was ideal for the covert CIA and Joint Special Operations Command (JSOC) needed to coordinate arms smuggling that Obama, Hillary and then CIA Director Petraeus were knee deep in. Stevens ultimately may have felt he was being used as the convenient decoy for the clandestine activity he wanted no part of.

Years earlier as a former Peace Corps volunteer and a seasoned career diplomat, becoming a lookout for an immoral criminal gun running operation may not have been what he had signed on for as the Libyan Ambassador. Thus, he very likely voiced his objection to what his bosses in Washington were misusing him for, and as vindictive and petty as Obama and Hillary are, Stevens was likely punished for not going along with their program. Hence, all his urgent pleas that began as early as June 2012, a full three months prior to the September attack, requesting increased security were ignored, including his desperate cry for help moments before his murder on the night of the 11th. Meanwhile, as he and three other Americans lay dying, back in the States Obama was flying out West to another high brow fundraiser so he could self-servingly get reelected.

What is most certain is that this trouble spot region was the hub of activity for special ops units comprised of special forces and a large number of CIA operatives in conjunction with British MI6. The CIA safely defended annex in Benghazi a mere mile and a half from the embassy compound was the largest CIA station in North Africa. The annex housed 35 CIA personnel responsible for coordinating the large arms smuggling operation to Syria, circumventing Congress by calling the CIA mission a liaison operation.

Two former special ops operatives Brandon Webb and Jack Murphy, authors of ‘Benghazi: The Definitive Report,’ have since claimed that a bureaucratic breakdown in communication between CIA and JSOC caused local Benghazi radicals to attack and kill Americans on 9/11/12. They believe that just days before an assassination carried out by Special Operations of a popular Libyan CIA informant had angered an al Qaeda affiliated militia called Ansar al-Sharia to launch the attack as retribution. The former Special Ops boys, one of whom was friends with one of the killed Americans Glen Doherty, speculated that the root cause of the American embassy deaths was the result of the left hand not knowing what the right hand was doing in the over-compartmentalized, ultra-guarded secrecy of competing clandestine intelligence operations and that this problem commonly serves as a major barrier and significant dysfunction of American foreign policy in general. They believe the Ambassador was probably only peripherally aware of the high presence of CIA and JSOC operations in the area but was never directly involved or looped in.

This claim appears to be a disinformation ploy to again absolve the higher ups Obama and Clinton of any responsibility. It did little to quiet the conjecture surrounding the attack that Stevens knew too much and had become a thorn in the side of the hierarchical status quo.

Though the former special ops authors may have offered small minor details on the Benghazi story, obviously far more was going down than they alluded to. On October 26th, 2012 a mere two weeks prior to the David Petraeus-Paula Broadwell affair broke as the scandalous headlines, Broadwell hyping her ‘All In’biographyof the general spoke at the University of Denver divulging her inside scoop on the Benghazi attack that had taken place a month and a half earlier. She claimed the attack on the compound was probable payback for CIA detaining local members from the same Libyan militia responsible for the assault. Or that the attackers may have been attempting to free their prisoners. Though only one news reporter from Fox paid any attention to Paula at the time, once their tryst was exposed a short time afterwards, much speculation raised the issue that Broadwell unwittingly revealed classified information that could well have been leaked through her intimacy with the then CIA Director. That the mistress was privy to such insider lowdown compromising sensitive US intelligence operations headquartered at the CIA Benghazi annex is a very real possibility, especially since classified documents were later uncovered at her North Carolina home.

In view of the CIA’s fervent denial that any prisoners were detained in Benghazi and Obama’s January 2009 executive order outlawing the CIA business of holding prisoners, Paula shooting her mouth off as an insider know-it-all implicated her lover Petraeus and his CIA as criminals engaging in an unlawful operation. But then that illegal activity amounts to small peanuts in comparison to the much bigger crime being committed by her lover CIA boss Petraeus and his crime bosses Obama and Hillary for using the same Libyan al Qaeda militants who murdered the four Americans on 9/11/12 to smuggle guns from Benghazi across international borders to be used against Assad in Syria.

Despite Ambassador Stevens’ repeated requests for more security, it was never given. So when about 150 members of the local militia Ansar al-Sharia stormed the gates of the compound carrying machine guns and rocket propelled grenades (RPG’s), the handful of unarmed Libyan security contractors instantly fled and soon enough the building was engulfed in flames. The nearby annex in Benghazi where thirty-five CIA operatives worked was called during the crisis to assist those Americans at the embassy. CIA security officer Tyrone Woods convinced his supervisor at the annex with five other security personnel to rush to the embassy’s aid. Both Woods and Glen Doherty were former Navy Seals commandos who died from bullet wounds at the second attack at the annex killed by a mortar after Sean Smith, an information officer, and Ambassador Stevens had already died from smoke inhalation. According to authors Webb and Murphy, due to Woods and Doherty’s heroics along with four other CIA analysts, the remaining embassy staff were apparently able to safely escape the burning compound. An overhead surveillance drone had been dispatched above the compound prior to that second attack that occurred at the annex. President Obama, Secretary of State Clinton and CIA Director Petraeus were all informed of the crisis unfolding during the afternoon local Washington time. Yet they chose to not even bother contacting the Marines stationed in the capital Tripoli, allegedly figuring they would take too long to arrive on the scene in Benghazi. So after ignoring the Ambassador’s pleas urging for more security for three straight months, they coldly refused to order any further military assistance at the time the four Americans lost their lives.

Instead they ordered UN Ambassador Susan Rice to later lie to the American public claiming that the attack was instigated by that anti-Moslem youtube video. Under the increasing pressure of Benghazi questions, suddenly Hillary keeled over with a brain clot to conveniently dodge any more heat. And of course Petraeus was soon engulfed in scandal with his mistress Broadwell, retiring from the CIA and out of sight for months thereafter, conveniently ducking from his hot seat. And then soon enough Clinton was resigning as Secretary of State, evading any further scrutiny as the Ambassador’s boss most responsible for the deaths of the four Americans.

Another piece of incriminating evidence is that the FBI team sent in to investigate the Benghazi murders never even arrived at the crime scene until three weeks after the attack, making sure that vital forensic evidence could be conveniently lost, confiscated or destroyed. Despite having videotape that allowed individual attackers to be identified by name, they all still remain free to this day. Eleven months after the attack the US Justice Department last August in a hollow gesture officially charged the alleged suspects in a sealed indictment. But without them in custody, it means nothing.

Clinton strategically figured she would lay low long enough out of the public spotlight to effectively distance herself from Benghazi to make another run for President in 2016. But while briefly still back on the job and those nagging Benghazi questions weren’t going away fast enough, she completely lost it, screaming, “What difference at this point does it make?” – obviously all the difference in the world to her and her buddy Barrack. On 9/11 the year before last, Obama, Clinton and Petraeus sacrificed four American lives that day to preserve their own careers as powerful evil despots who with blind ambition would stop at nothing to remain in power.

President Obama and Hillary Clinton have both gone to great lengths to make sure that their cover-up concealing the truth never gets exposed. With the attack taking place less than two months prior to Obama’s reelection, they are determined that the truth never sees the light of day. However, big cracks are looming in their wall of defense and their lies are falling like a house of cards. Mounting evidence indicates both Obama and Clinton were engaged in a highly covert and illicit arms smuggling operation moving weapons from Libya through Turkey to the anti-Assad rebels in Syria. And at stake for Obama and Clinton was their future plans to win the presidential election in 2012 and 2016.

On August 2nd, 2013 three full weeks prior to the sarin gas attack in the Damascus suburb killing scores of Syrian civilians including children, UK’s Telegraph reporter Damien McElroy wrote an article asserting that Obama and Hillary are guilty as charged, engaging in a gun-running operation that included surface to air missiles and even chemical weapons speculating that a “false flag operation” might occur as a deceptive ploy to make false accusations against Assad. Again, this article came out three weeks PRIOR to Obama accusing Assad of using chemical weapons. No coincidence in the timing. Since then renowned investigative reporter Seymour Hersh who broke the My Lai massacre story and cover-up during the Vietnam War and a host of other journalists have since provided convincing evidence that the chemical attack last August was committed by US backed al Qaeda rebels.

And those 35 CIA agents stationed at the nearby Benghazi annex, word came out that every month since the event they have been required to undergo polygraph tests just to ensure they keep quiet. One insider even told CNN last year, “You jeopardize your family as well if you talk to anyone about what happened.”

Aside from Obama, Hillary and Petraeus evading accountability at all cost, what is most incriminating is that the very same Al Qaeda jihadists armed, financed and supported with American taxpayer dollars during the Libyan regime-change are the exact same individuals who have gotten away with murdering those four Americans in Benghazi. For more than three years now America and Saudi Arabia have been sponsoring and funding al Qaeda affiliated militia groups from all over the Middle East and North Africa fighting Assad forces in Syria in the latest regime-change war. When the murders went down on 9/11/12, Hillary’s State Department had been acting as a cover supporting al Qaeda elements smuggling arms to Syria to fight in that so called civil war. Much of Gaddafi’s huge stash of arms had been looted, falling into the hands of American-backed rebel forces in Libya, including chemical weapons that were never accounted for. By pure accident, the Benghazi tragedy reveals the ongoing war by proxy that the US, Saudi Arabia and Israel have been waging against Syria and its strongest allies Iran and Russia.

As a side note, ex-CIA Director Petraeus was allowed to retain his full status as a retired four star general at full pay despite committing adultery while still serving as Afghanistan War commander when military personnel of lower rank are customarily demoted and forced to retire at a lower pension rate for the exact same offense of adultery. Mistress Paula Broadwell also suffered no formal consequence regarding her retention rank as major in the US Army Reserves. It seems obvious that Petraeus has been rewarded for his loyal silence on the Benghazi incident. Additionally, several days after Petraeus ducked out of sight in disgrace after resigning as CIA Director, Petraeus’ wife as the victim of his adulterous affair was suddenly being promoted by Obama to a new cushy position made especially for her earning near Petraeus’ retirement pension of $200,000 per year.

Then just over a week after his CIA resignation Petraeus was called in to testify before the House Intelligence Committee but given a free pass in his not having to testify under a sworn oath to disclose the full truth of what he knew. So he proceeded to lie before Congress claiming that he consistently said that an al Qaeda affiliated militia group was behind the attack. In fact Petraeus secretly flew to Libya immediately after the attack and upon his return to the US a couple days later Petraeus held the official administration line they knew to be false that the Benghazi attack was due to the bogus anti-Moslem video. Of course with the scandal causing his own presidential ambitions to be thoroughly shattered, Petraeus more recently has gone on public record stating that Hillary Clinton would make “an excellent president.” Clearly he is towing the line as a good little boy for keeping his mouth shut for Hillary and Barrack.

Obama lied when he promised to ensure that those guilty of the attack would be brought to justice. Now going on two years later not one of the attackers has even been apprehended or arrested. With the murderers in the Benghazi assault still at large, many of the attackers afterwards moved on with the arms they were helping to smuggle to join US-supported rebel forces fighting the Assad government in Syria. They may have been silenced by now, secretly killed by judge, jury and executioner President Obama in his lust to kill his enemies with drone missile attacks. In any event, rest assure none of the perpetrators behind the Benghazi attack will ever be captured alive or prosecuted. They simply know too much. Last 9/11/13 barely a peep was heard from the mainstream media on the very first anniversary of the Benghazi tragedy. The reason is all too obvious.

Many of the family members of the murdered Americans felt that Obama and his administration were responsible for their loved ones deaths. Some complained about Obama’s condolences as brusk, insincere and insensitive. They were disturbed further with Obama’s response on a 60 Minutes segment in late January 2013. Obama and Hillary were answering questions about Benghazi when Obama quoted Defense Secretary Robert Gates, “At this moment somewhere, somehow, somebody in the federal government’s screwing up” as he turned to Hillary laughing at his joke about their Benghazi screw-up that killed four Americans. They also had to be upset hearing the president on another occasion callously dismissing the Benghazi tragedy as “a sideshow.”

Not surprisingly, the US installed puppet government in Libya has been of no assistance in its lack of cooperation with revealing any further details of the attack. Last June the chaos, lawlessness and terror in Benghazi only continued as thirty-one Libyans protesting their grievances against an al Qaeda militia group were brutally massacred outside the al Qaeda headquarters. The entire eastern region of Libya today is still not under control of the national government, which has largely been taken over by US backed al Qaeda affiliates. Libya today is in complete shambles steeped in corruption, instability and violence.

Meanwhile, the two American criminals most responsible for the attack, President Obama and presidential heir-apparent Hilary Clinton need to be held accountable for their crimes along with their other partner-in-crime General Petraeus. With the belated truth behind Benghazi slowly coming out, Obama should be impeached and Hillary must never become president. Ironically the crime of Nixon’s Watergate cover-up that brought down the first and only president in US history forced to resign in disgrace pales in comparison to the crimes committed by the likes of the Obama administration.

Joachim Hagopian is a West Point graduate and former Army officer. His written manuscript based on his military experience examines leadership and national security issues and can be consulted at http://www.redredsea.net/westpointhagopian/. After the military, Joachim earned a masters degree in psychology and became a licensed therapist working in the mental health field for more than a quarter century. He now focuses on writing.

From the Wilderness Forward, What Really Happened to Michael C. Ruppert

From the Wilderness Forward, What Really Happened to Michael C. Ruppert


He carried, as it were, the burden of the world on his shoulders. He was almost a Christ-like figure in that sense.” ~ Barry Zwicker – Author, Activist and Media Critic, commenting on Mike Ruppert’s death, Global Research News Hour April 23, 2014

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Michael C. Ruppert was a lot of things to a lot of people, but amidst it all—although many didn’t know it, Mike was a troubled man. He carried the weight of what he genuinely believed to be the coming “end of the industrialized civilization” and the inevitable “collapse”. He had told us many times that,

There is no more time.”

Mike provided us a 25-point plan in his book, Crossing the Rubicon, but we didn’t take that ball and run with it.

In the end, Mike believed that the time for “doing something”, to stop the collapse, had come and gone. It was too late and now was the time to prepare for our initial survival and then demise. Mike believed, we as a species — because of the finite nature of the situation, were doomed.

Mike wanted us to prepare ourselves personally and spiritually in order to endure the horror of what to him was now the unavoidable. Mike taught us that no amount of prepping would help you if you didn’t have a community.

Mike carried a burden of information the average person isn’t even aware of, and it was heavy …

… But the problems with the world were not the only things that troubled Mike.




Mike’s suicidal tendencies go back further than “at least 8-years” as has been reported thus far (including by me). In 2004, Mike’s close friend, Gary Webb, took his life and Mike reported on the tragedy. In his  From the Wilderness report on Gary’s death, he added,

I myself might have committed suicide in 1996 – broke, divorced and having given up all hope of making people listen — had it not been for Gary Webb. For some years now it has been the farthest thing from my mind.

I rediscovered my purpose and maybe Gary lost his. This is a tragedy of Shakespearean proportions.” ~ Michael C. Ruppert, From the Wilderness, December 13, 2004

In addition Mike emailed a friend/colleague on October 19, 2006 admitting to two previous suicide attempts.

In July of 2012 Mike emailed another friend, Lois Karel:


I am not a psychiatrist, psychologist, psychotherapist or medical doctor. I am however, Bipolar. I have Bipolar-1 to be exact. I have written on the topic often because it is important that people have a better understanding and awareness of mental health.

Did you know there are now diagnostic imaging tests that can show differences between Bipolar brains and non-Bipolar brains or that beauty can be found in bipolar? Probably not. Mental health is still a mystery to most and without consistent research to stay abreast of advancements, old ideas and attitudes will often prevail.

It was through my awareness of Mike and his work beginning in 2001 and my subsequent interactions with him that began in 2005, that I recognized a kindred spirit. Mike mirrored something in me. I never realized how much so until after he took his life when I found myself unexpectedly steeped in trying to understand so that I might explain.

Most of the years I’d known Mike, I too was in denial of my problem. I too toyed with taking and then not taking SSRIs and other mind altering drugs. I too have thought often about taking my life, I still have my moments.

That’s what Suicidal Ideation is all about.

Mike had further diagnoses than just that of Suicidal Ideation which we will talk about because Suicidal Ideation is a symptom of an illness and is not necessarily the illness itself.

Mike has been called a “narcissist”, an “egomaniac” and more by many; including those who call him “friend”. There is some truth in those words and the source of that truth stems from Mike’s mental health. Mike’s brilliance fueled his problem and vice versa; just as his walk in the world of conspiracies did.

To paraphrase Dylan Avery from a recent Vocativ interview days after Mike’s death,

If I allowed myself to continue down a certain path, that could have been me…. Ruppert was confirmation that you have to walk away…It’s a dark, dangerous world, the world of conspiracy. You make a commitment and either stick with it to the very end, or you don’t. It’s easy to get sucked in, and really hard to get sucked back out.” ~ Dylan Avery, Vocativ, April 25, 2014

A recent study published in Springer’s journal Cognitive Therapy and Research, called Catastrophic Thoughts About the Future Linked to Suicidal Patients, by University of Pennsylvania Perelman School of Medicine‘s, Shari Jager-Hyman, Ph.D., explores how negative and hopeless thoughts about the future influence suicidal behaviors in patients who’ve sought emergency psychiatric care.

To prevent suicides, therapists would benefit from directly targeting patients’ thoughts of hopelessness in clinical interventions,” says Jager-Hyman. “A cognitive approach can help patients evaluate their beliefs that negative outcomes will inevitably occur, and show them how to entertain other possible options. This can help to minimize patients’ thoughts of hopelessness, help them to cope better, and ideally decrease their suicidal ideation and behaviors.” ~ Shari Jager-Hyman, Ph.D.

Many people have asked me if Mike simply knew too much and could that be the reason he took his life.

While I am sure the things he knew weighed heavily on him, his work is not what caused Mike’s mental health issues.

It did however, exacerbate his behaviors including the Suicidal Ideation.


Heroes are Human Too

“Have I ever been called a conspiracy theorist? Of course I’ve been called a conspiracy theorist, but I don’t deal in conspiracy theory, I deal in conspiracy fact [emphasis is Mike’s].” ~ MCR in Collapse

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Mike’s research and tenacity was impressive and his in-depth analyses and informative reports — paired with his arrogance and courage — energized, enlightened and inspired. Mike was a leader and he needed you; without you there was no one to lead. The manner in which he delivered his message was one that galvanized countless others to want to know more, but even with all of that, his mind was both working for and against him.

The current hurt, bewilderment, suspicion and  anger that is felt by many cannot be properly addressed without offering up the reality of Mike, the man.

Mike was a “Hero”, but he was also a human being.

No one should be judged for being human.

For at least nearly a decade Mike made those near him, and those who followed him, acutely aware of his personal struggles, however; over that same decade Mike allowed very few people to actually get close. Those that were close experienced all the various moods of Mike on a consistent basis. If you were not in Mike’s inner circle then you were in the majority who merely found his persona to be “dynamic”, “magnetic”, “impassioned” and more.

Mike was serious in his mission and that seriousness came through in spades.


Follow the Leader

Ya know…somebody once said to me a long time ago, and this was back in probably eighty-four, ‘Climb down off the cross asshole, we need the lumber.’ I’m not a Messiah. I am not responsible for saving anybody. The only person I am responsible for saving, is me.” ~ MCR, in Collapse

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If Mike was scared, we were scared. If Mike was excited, we were excited. If Mike said he was in danger, we believed Mike was in danger. If Mike said we were in danger, we believed we were in danger.

Mike’s messages were visceral.

If Mike acted hot-headed, childish, irrational, questionable or even anguished, we believed it was due to whatever situation he was covering, or telling us he was covering at the time. Mike’s frequent talk and threats of suicide; including alluding to at least two attempts, where real to those close to him, but to the rest of the world — who didn’t know any better, Mike was just being Mike.

One close friend, whom I will not name, was sincere and without malice when he said there was always “drama” with Mike; not just in how he reported or in what he believed, but also in how he dealt with things in his  personal life,

Whatever was happening, the way you heard about it from Mike was always more urgent or dire than it really was. If he told you he had 10-days to be out, he probably had 30.”


A Need to Be Loved

Mike was proud of — and tickled by, having so many Facebook friends, it made him happy however; after his death, the head of Mike’s Facebook Moderator team, Ali “Maverick” Thomas and I, discovered that Mike rarely – if ever, opened any of the messages he received, let alone read them. Almost all of the private messages in Mike’s Facebook account, from all of these years, remain unopened or he simply deleted them.

That is quite telling.


It is no secret that friends and fans helped Mike in many ways, especially financially and that “help”, to Mike, was even more of an affirmation that he was liked and/or loved. To his credit, the help he received from his fans was genuinely appreciate by Mike and he painstakingly tried to acknowledge each person who donated by responding with a handwritten letter of gratitude.

Mike needed the admiration and attention of people in order to thrive in myriad ways, but those very same people exhausted and frustrated him with what he perceived to be their complacency and/or ignorance and their unwillingness to take his advice and do something now.

There was a carousel of colleagues, associates, business partners and “friends” and there where countless fans who would discover Mike’s work for the first time at some point or other and then begin to follow. Many of Mike’s more recent fans and friends are those who never knew Mike during the mind expanding days, successes and growth of From the Wilderness that had held our hand through the tumultuous times after 9/11 and throughout most of the Bush Administration.

Many of his latest fans and friends didn’t realize the metamorphosis of Mike that those who had known or followed him for a long time had not only witnessed happening, but were themselves – at various times, pillars of support that helped prop Mike up and hang on for as long as he did. There were a few newer friends as well, who had recognized the fragility hidden behind his roar and they too helped Mike maneuver the corridors of his mind as he navigated the dark world of our Government, but they were few.


Many of his newer fans and friends also had no stick with which to measure the depth or duration of Mike’s very real and very personal struggle he’d had with his own mind. Most had no idea that Mike had a real problem.

There were burnt bridges and broken relationships, not just in the FTW days, but throughout the course of Mike’s life including most recently in Crestone, Colorado where he and his long-time friend and band-mate, Doug Lewis, had a falling out. I do not know the details of what happened between them as that is Doug’s story to tell, but I have talked to Doug, and Mike’s departure from Colorado wasn’t really much different than any other time Mike flew the coop.

Few people in Mike’s life, like Carolyn Baker, stuck with Mike through the very end. Carolyn had met Mike and consequently began contributing to FTW in 2000. The two worked together or collaborated together over the many years of their friendship. According to Carolyn, Mike leaned heavily on her those last weeks, calling or contacting her nearly every other day expressing thoughts and feelings of suicide, but this was not the first time Mike had done this.

The merry-go-round of ups and downs batters not only the person who is mentally ill, but also those that are closest to them and the ensuing loss and alienation of all things tattered and torn feeds the cycle of Suicidal Ideation that permeates the daily life of those who experience it. Suicidal Ideation is comparable to an obsession; planning — always planning, for the end, even during times of success or “happiness”, Suicidal Ideation is still tap, tap, tapping away on the sufferer’s shoulder like a reminder.


Getting Help

Community is what will save us. You’re gonna have to do it in conjunction with your neighbors and your family and the people around you. You will fail as a rugged individual; you will survive as a member of a tribe or a family…<stop camera> I have emotion about this, I am losing.” ~ A very emotional and poignant warning from MCR in Collapse

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Mike had a problem, but because of how it presented itself in his life, it was easier for him [and us] to blame situations, people and the world for his symptoms. Denial is its own disease.

I have to wonder if Mike researched his own mental health and varying diagnoses as extensively as he did other things?

I do not know the answer to that.

What Mike needed was help, but the outside world merely took Mike’s state of mind and constant requests for help as that of a man whose life was in danger [real or imagined] because he was telling the things “They” didn’t want told, and so…

… friends and fans helped by sending money, sharing links and trying to engage with him online.

Close friends encouraged him to get professional help, but they were often the “counselors” Mike sought out instead.

We can argue the voracity of “mental health”, it’s causes, the labels and more, but none of that will change the fact that those who suffer whatever you want to call “it” are indeed suffering and the battle Mike had was overwhelming, not just at the end, but for a long time.

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The body of work Mike left behind is brilliant and immense. As the world continues to careen and collapse around us more people will discover the relevancy of Michael C. Ruppert and that part of his legacy will forever live on with a momentum all its own, but there was a final message from Mike that needs to be shared and there is also a final lesson from Mike that needs to be learned.


From the Wilderness to the Jungle of Venezuela to the Jungle of New York

By 2006 Mike was having extreme difficulty. FTW had fallen apart and Mike’s world was turned inside out; his stage had been pulled — or kicked, from beneath him and in July, he fled to Venezuela after mostly completing the Pat Tillman story.

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Mike said he fled because he feared for his life. As with anyone who does the sort of work Mike did, it is easy to believe lives may have been in danger, but also due to the work itself, we will never really know if that was true. One thing is for sure, many of Mike’s fans believed him and it further cemented in their minds that “truth telling” was a dangerous game.

Mike was a prolific writer. He was also compelling on-camera and in audio in good times and bad and he shared; boy did he share. If it was happening to Mike, everyone knew about it if he wanted you to, and if you were paying attention.

Mike’s more recent friends heard him say he was “no longer a Warrior and was now a teacher.” This was not a new idea to Mike. Mike had said similar things before – including before moving to Colorado in 2010, according to his good friend Jack Martin.

Mike had pulled out of or away from “movements” many times over the years. Mike had a pattern of being publicly on again – off again just as you see in the excerpt of his email to colleagues in November of 2006 that has been released by Jenna Orkin on April 16, 2014 in her ongoing blog series on Mike’s life.

“…anything [sic] I do now will be out of the public eye. Guidance yes, but I need to get offstage for a good long while. That is both a pressure and a drug I need to detox from…” ~ Michael C. Ruppert, Email, Novemeber 2006

I had my first conversation with Mike a year prior to that email. Mike had said he was no longer a part of the “movement” in reference to 9/11 Truth and made it clear to me he wanted to be left alone. He was disgusted by how he viewed the evolution of “Truthers” and was done with the overwhelming “conspiracies” that did little to lend credence to his own hard work.

Imagine my surprise when 4-years later, in the late  spring/early summer of 2009, I found myself working with Mike on a 9/11 Truth project called the Week of Truth (WOT). Sadly, Mike threatened the whole group of us that where working together, with litigation over what he had perceived to be plagiarism of his words used in a proposal put together based on interviews with him, by best-selling author, Steve Alten.

No one had plagiarized anything, but Alten had not specifically credited him for bullet points Mike felt he owned. Mike needed to be recognized.


Jenna and Mike and Bellevue…Oh My

The word “Bipolar” was used a few times in conjunction with PTSD in relation to Mike by doctors and therapists and Mike himself, according to Jenna Orkin, who was quite close to Mike during this time, just as they had been before he’d fled to Venezuela. It was her home in which Mike lived when he returned to the United States in November of 2006 and by December Mike began having “debilitating panic attacks”.

When I arrived in New York in late November [after returning from Venezuela] I was so depressed I could barely speak. Who wouldn’t be depressed? Suicide was on my mind daily. I remembered other great journalists who had died in pain after producing great works. Jonathan Kwitny comes to mind.” ~ Michael C. Ruppert, From the Wilderness, January 31, 2007

A physician friend of Mike’s referred him to his sister, Dr. Faiza Khan, a N.Y. Psychiatrist. Dr. Khan suggested for Mike to seek help at an Emergency Room.

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Jenna and Mike went to the Emergency Room at Bellevue Hospital Center, which is well known [notorious] for its psychiatric facilities. Mike was seen by Dr. Heather Lewerenz, prescribed Valium and then released with an appointment for a follow-up visit.

What is of interest and import (and probably hardly recognized) in Mike’s telling of the Bellevue story is that Mike brought a copy of his bookCrossing the Rubicon, with him to the E.R. that night. He calls the story, “New Years at Bellevue” and it is still archived at FTW. He also points out that Jenna was a “witness” to this story.

Here is an excerpt from Mike’s report where he is talking about the book…

While I was waiting to be seen, there were a bunch of NY cops in the waiting room and one of them recognized me. He had read Rubicon and asked to shake my hand. The other NY cops were very cool and not one of them displayed the “love it or leave it” syndrome. They were actually quite sympathetic.

They all shook my hand and asked me to pass around a copy of Rubicon which I did so they could see it. Jenna was there to witness all this. I told them, truthfully, that I was there because I was having a lot of PTSD. No shit.” ~ Michael C. Ruppert, From the Wilderness, Jan. 31, 2007

At a follow-up to his E.R. visit, Mike was also prescribed the antidepressant, Effexor. After a week on the Effexor Mike was suicidal and was admitted at Bellevue on New Year’s Eve 2006/2007.

Mental health is something that cannot be overlooked in the life and death of Michael C. Ruppert. There is no amount of religion, faith, friendship or brilliance that can change the fact that Mike had problems and the very things that drew us to him are the very things that drove others away.


New White Trash, Doug Lewis and Meeting Jessy Re`

After the documentary Collapse, Mike had again rode the roller coaster of indie media fame and then some; Mike’s message had finally touched the mainstream. Michael C. Ruppert was again the man with the answers; the man people turned to [or attacked].

On July 19, 2012 Mike sent an email to his friend, business partner and Attorney, Wesley Miller. Part of this email again is Mike talking about planning his death. This was a month before he made the move to Colorado.

The weeks since have been, without exception, the happiest time and most growth-filled time of my life. All I did was farm and live with the land and pray. My leaving the company was essential so that you guys would have something to lean on. You have done well. You need the company. I don’t.

48 hours ago I was well into planning suicide out back. I had nowhere to go.The crops are unbelievable. The corn is eight feet high. There will be 50 pounds of potatoes, watermleon, squash, pumpkins and we brought four trees back to producing that didn’t do anything last year; peaches, plums, pears. It’s wonderful.” ~ Michael C. Ruppert email to Wes Miller July 19, 2012

When Mike’s financial and personal world crumbled again, he left Sebastopol, California in August of 2012 with the stated purpose of taking his life. According to his close friend Jack Martin — who helped him pack, Mike had destroyed or otherwise gotten rid of all of his previous research and files prior to making this move.

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Mike headed to the Crestone, Colorado area where he moved in with his long-time friend and New White Trash bandmate Doug Lewis. It was through his friendship with Doug that Mike met Jessy Re`Pulver, the woman he fell in love with and spoke of often however, cryptically, on The Lifeboat Hour, calling her a “friend”.

The band was making music, Mike was in love and his spirituality was taking flight.

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As a bandmate, Mike had finally allowed himself to collaborate versus be the “leader”. Although he loved making music, recording music was another way Mike was able to leave a piece of him behind; another body of Mike’s work that would outlive him.

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According to Doug,

Mike was a ‘Soul Man’, <think Blues Brothers>; he was good at dancing and singing. He had a talent always ready to come out.”

I was struck by the Blues Brothers analogy while talking with Doug and their song “Almost” jumped to mind and is quite fitting in retrospect…

Already having had a deep awareness of Mother Earth, Mike’s time in Colorado reinforced and expanded his faith in “Native” ways while his addictions and the bitter cold chipped away at his sanity and sense of self and empowerment.

Mike was overwhelmed. Not because of all the bad things he had uncovered in the world, but by his own issues, his own proclivities and addictions; his own weaknesses as a man. Mike was unable [or unwilling] to take the next step to address or resolve his problems.

Ironically on his April 6, 2014 show, Mike said,

The pain of not changing has become greater than the pain of changing.”

Mike believed that about us and the world, but he obviously didn’t believe that about himself.

Many thought Mike was living a “primitive” life in Crestone and Moffat, Colorado, but that wasn’t exactly true. While Doug’s place is 22+ miles from the nearest anything, it is a nice home fully equipped and comfortable.

To address those who believe Mike was a “survivalist” or “prepper”, Doug (who does keep emergency supplies) said,

Mike was no prepper.  He understood the importance of being prepared for any emergency situation, but took no steps to prepare or to maintain emergency supplies.  Cigarettes would be the exception. Mike identified more with being a ‘warrior’ than as a prepper or survivalist.”


Andy Capper, “Apocalypse, Man” and the Bitter Cold

The idea for Apocalypse, Man didn’t materialize out of the blue. Vice Magazine’s Global Editor, Andy Capper, and Mike met after the release of Collapse. Over the years they discussed many ideas and opportunities and according to Capper, they even discussed the possibility of Mike becoming an occasional “correspondent” for Vice.

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In November 2013, Capper, traveled to Crestone, Colorado to film and direct the Apocalypse, Manseries which had a soft release online earlier this year. When I spoke with Capper, he told me filming the series had involved 10-11 hour days. Most of the footage we see is that of Mike talking to us from the Singing Stone Lodge in the San Luis Valley surrounded by the Sangre de Cristo Range; traditionally known as the Black and White Sash or Mother Earth’s Sash. The lodge is owned and maintained by Mike’s friend and spiritual mentor, Christopher Long.

Andy and Mike talked about screening Apocalypse, Man somewhere in Northern California. The actuality of that is still to be determined however, according to Capper, the final release will include at least one previously unreleased scene that will replace another that is less relevant to the series. Capper shared that he has additional footage he may include and or release at a later date.

Some of you may not know this, but the Vice series is not “Apocalypse Man” as in Mike was the “Apocalypse Man.” The title has a comma between the two words and is, “Apocalypse…Maaaaan” <think stoner dude delivery>. That comma meant a lot to Mike and he said so many times when he discussed the series.

Filming was done and by January, Mike and Jessy Re` were talking about their future together, but on February 4, 2014, (his last week in Colorado) Mike was a guest on Higherside Chats (#93). The Vice video segments had already gone live online and something was changing, again, with Mike,

Within in the last two months or so I’ve had a really fundamental change in, in my position. We are in hospice as a species; as a planet. Human industrial civilization and more importantly I think as Terrance McKenna might argue, or Daniel Quinn might argue or Rupert Sheldrake or a lot of my heroes might say, but this, this culture is dying. It is the culture which has to die. Uh, because, it is a meme which is now obviously and transparentl[y] … suicidal.” ~ Michael C. Ruppert Higherside Chats interview February 4, 2014

The winters can be rather harsh in Colorado, especially when you are isolated 21-miles or so from the nearest anything. To Mike, the winters and the territory were unforgiving and untenable; the cold was physically hurting him, the isolation was also taking its toll and his relationship with Doug was becoming strained.

Mike’s shift towards “hospicing” oneself instead of “saving” the world was profound and — in my opinion — was a clue that Mike’s Suicidal Ideation was giving him a run for his money.

As per Mike’s M.O., he once again suddenly sought help from fans and friends and fled Colorado. According to Doug, when Mike left,

His car was smoking and barely ran and he only left with hundreds — not thousands, of dollars.”


Coming Home to California

Mike needed help, again. His finances were bad and he needed a place to live. He wanted out of the cold and ice of the Colorado winter and back into the warmth and sunshine of California. Mike contacted several people in an email blast and when it came down to it, it was the offer of his good friend, 63-year-old Jack Martin from Calistoga, California, that Mike accepted.

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Mike’s old Lincoln was barely running and according to Jack, Mike texted and called often, giving him a blow-by-blow of every malfunction and crisis along the way. Jack was afraid the Lincoln wouldn’t make it, but Mike was insistent it would. Jack told me Mike found humor in his car troubles and laughed about the challenges. He seemed happy to be coming home.

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In the latter half of February 2014, Michael Ruppert pulled onto 2 ½ acres outside of the city limits of Calistoga after what had been a 18-month adventure in Colorado.

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When Jack asked Mike why he chose his offer over other offers, Mike’s reply was typical Mike, deadpan and true to the friendship he and Jack shared when he said,

Because you offered.”

Jack had made the old Airstream trailer livable for Mike. He set it up so that Mike could also work and do his show from there.

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The profound thinking Mike was going through during this time can only be pieced together by those he had shared his feelings with – some of which has been shared with me. In Colorado Mike had realized that he, Michael C. Ruppert, was just as unprepared as the rest of us, for the things he believed were coming.

Spiritually, Mike had found comfort in Native American faiths, but tangibly, Mike didn’t have a pot to piss in if shit really suddenly did  hit the fan. I have seen several people claim that Mike was a “prepper”, but this is not true in the literal sense as Mike did not have the means to prep, also, Mike didn’t believe prepping was going to save anyone and taught us the importance of building community.

On January 6, 2011, Mike did say — during a Zeitgeist interview, that he was going to take a survivalist course that coming February,

I’m going to be taking Tom’s [Brown] basic course in February and after that Tom and I are in discussion to start doing weekend seminars around the country.”

But, Mike was not a prepper nor a survivalist.


Where There’s A Will…

Jack told me Mike was on a mission to have a new Will drawn-up immediately upon arriving. Jack says he was obsessed, but clarifies Mike’s reasons had nothing to do with any nefarious fears of Government assignation.

According to Jack [and others], Mike made Wills often, changing who the Executor was each time. Sometimes this was due to fallings-out he had with people, like that of his relationship with Doug Lewis who had been the previous Will’s Executor (before that it had been Wesley Miller, Mike’s last Attorney of Record; his CollapseNet business partner and friend).


The last Will, which Jack is the legal Executor of, is a 4-page document, mostly containing instruction as to who is to do what regarding his social media accounts, his show, his dog “Rags” and so on.

Also upon Mike’s arrival in California, he stressed to Jack that he no longer had any government or otherwise dangerous files in his possession, including on his computer’s hard drives. He had gotten rid of everything 2-years prior, before moving to Colorado and wanted Jack to be aware of what would or would not be on his property.

This picture was taken just  a couple of weeks before Mike took his life. In the image with Mike is Jack Martin’s son Jack Jr. and his grandson Ian.

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According to Jack, Mike had been getting to know Jack’s family in those weeks he was living there and said Mike seemed to enjoy spending time with his grandchildren and even the craftsmen that worked on the property. He would tell stories around the fire-pit for whoever was listening and his time there was spent peacefully and this beautiful view is what Mike was looking act where he stood in those seconds before pulling the trigger and ending his life.

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Jack and his wife live in town, within the city limits of Calistoga, not out on the property where Mike lived. Jack’s daughter, her husband and their children and his son lived on the property with Mike. Between them and the craftsmen, Mike had daily “neighbors”.

Jack noted that Mike had never been alone on those 2 ½ acres until the evening he took his life.


Into the “Matrix”: Mike Goes to Seattle

Mike was working on a treatment or pilot for a mainstream series. It was all hush-hush so there are few available details.


Mike did tell his listeners the new show would bring him some much needed funds while not putting him in the position of having to compromise who he was. He said, “They want Mike Ruppert full-tilt” and he seemed prepared to give it to them. He also mentioned he would be interviewing Dr. John W. Apsley, II while in Seattle. I have been in contact with. Dr. Apsley and he is interested in talking if or when he is legally released from his NDA.

On his April 6 show, Mike told us a  chauffeured Town Car would pick him up from the property at 8:00 the next morning to take him to the Santa Rosa Airport where he would be flying on Alaska Airline’s to Seattle to meet with the entertainment company he was working with. He also mentioned he’d be put up in a Marriott Courtyard Suite.

While in Seattle, Mike contacted Jack and others who say he had used the same “Matrix” language he did in his Facebook post when he returned on April 10.

On April 10, two-hours after he returned to Calistoga from Seattle, Mike made a post to his Facebook wall.

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He also posted a Craigslist ad (post id: 4418602353) seeking a place for himself, Jessy Re` and her son. He noted he would like it to have enough room for a horse when he was financially stable.  Mike’s ad has since expired and been removed by Craigslist however, I took a screen shot documenting it below. It can also be found in the slide show at the end of this article along with other pieces of documentation.

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I’ve seen much speculation over Mike’s trip to Seattle from which he returned a few days before taking his life. Is Seattle the reason Mike did this? Did something happen in Seattle? The answer to that question is both, “yes” and “no”. Nothing happened in Seattle that caused Mike to commit suicide beyond being faced further with his own reality after reentering “society” after having been isolated from that same “society”, for a year and a half in Colorado.

Mike had indeed, “stepped back into the Matrix” and the “Matrix” had the power to both save and take, Mike’s life because it was everything Mike taught against, but it isn’t what killed Mike.

There is not further information at this time on what the Seattle trip was all about or what will become of a footage, etc. involved with it.


The Hundredth Monkey and “Mike’s”, Not the “Lakota’s” Way

Documented by his grandiose highs and heartbreakingly lows, Mike was not joking when he spoke of wanting to take his life. His feelings were real to him and those who knew or followed Mike bore witness.

We have read and heard Mike speak on and thank “God” in the past, but over the years his gratitude and spirituality leaned more towards that of Native American and other Indigenous faiths. It should be noted that not all of the people who participated with Mike during his time in Colorado were blood Natives. Just like everything else, we stereotype “faith”.

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I cannot responsibly tell the story of Mike’s suicide, his “sacrifice”, without making it clear that what Mike did, the suicide itself is not in line with the true Lakota faith and/or their “flesh offering”. I contacted several blood Lakotas and according to a Lakota woman from South Dakota’s Pine Ridge Indian Reservation, suicide is not a part of their belief nor their ceremonies or rituals. There are lots of places you can find out more about Lakota faith and the “Sun Dance” also known as the “flesh offering”.

That does not mean that Mike didn’t believe – or want us to believe, he was sacrificing himself; his “flesh” for [us] “the children”. Either way, he intentionally included his faith in not only his words, but also in the final act itself. Notice the feather in Mike’s hands? Remember it.

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The words he left behind in his many notes, emails and posts were not arbitrary ramblings; they were euphoric yet resigned; peaceful yet violent; hopeful yet hopeless…they were a warning.

The Planet was Mike’s “God”. Mother Earth is the “Mother” in Mike’s note that he asked Jack to return his body to. Mike’s real mother passed away many years ago and the only family the Napa County Coroner and Sheriffs could locate was a single female cousin named Sherry Colliton in Charleston, North Carolina. This cousin was also on a list of people in Mike’s Will as someone to be contacted.

Some of Mike’s very closest ties at the end of his life were to those who have, what some consider, alternative ideas on life before death. “Hospice” or “Hospicing” is nothing new however, it is a term many do not know or understand the meaning of, especially in relation to someone that is not known to be terminally ill. For some of Mike’s friends, their involvement with “hospicing” made them a ready target of criticism and blame from those who have no grasp of how the concept pertained to Mike.

Did the support, counsel and friendship Mike received from people like Carolyn Baker or Guy McPherson cause or enable him to take his life? No.

It would however, stand to reason that their collective calmness and wisdom over the years offered Mike a sort of peace with himself that he didn’t or couldn’t find in others and I hope it washed over him when he needed it most.

We always knew it could come to this. To write about Mike requires the tranquility of recollection but at the moment, all is turmoil.” ~ Jenna Orkin, Mike Ruppert Blogspot, April 15, 2014

An expected death can still be shocking.” ~ Barry Zwicker — author and activist and media critic, speaking of death in relation to Mike’s suicide on the Global Research News Hour, April 23, 2014

In the second to the last The Lifeboat Hour show, Mike talks about all of the changes he sees taking place in people [not things or situations] around the world; he points out the growing leadership of women again and he talks about changes taking place in him. It is worth re-listening to, especially now to hear in hindsight of his death.

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Try as he might, Mike never found his “hundredth monkey” although he was followed and admired by tens of thousands of people around the world he couldn’t get us to effectively do the things that needed to be done to stop the coming collapse. Just as he taught about like Peak Oil, Mike believed we had also peaked as a planet and species hence his many warnings of “there is no more time”.

Michael C. Ruppert, “Truth Tracker”; our “Scout” from the wilderness of the industrialized civilization was trying to tell us the time for all he previously taught us, his 25-point plan, had passed.

Stop asking crazy people whether you’re sane or not.” ~ Michael C. Rupport, The Lifeboat Hour, April 6, 2014

Mike believed the time had come for dealing with our own selves as human beings, to address what was coming and how we were going to deal with it. It wasn’t about stopping anything anymore; it was about preparing spiritually and building a lifeboat, community or tribe.


The Tell-Tale Signs From an Expert

My earlier release of one of Mike’s “suicide” notes caught the attention of Treyce Montoya, MPsyD – Psychologist, forensic handwriting expert (specializing in suicide notes), and award-Winning Author. Treyce is an esteemed and much sought-after expert in her field and I am thankful for her insight and graciousness in allowing me to pick her brain.

Treyce had never heard of Michael C. Ruppert [or his work] prior to seeing that first note. With a completely unbiased or predetermined opinion she shared her professional thoughts with me after looking over all five of the handwritten notes (provided by me) that Mike had left at the scene, 

The uniqueness in the bipolar note vs. others is the [writer’s] predictable unpredictability; wishy-washy, depressed – elated, etc.. Just as you see in their actions, you see in their writing. All of the samples [notes] show the same bipolar tendencies AND suicidal ideations – severe – one of the worst cases of suicidal ideations I have seen in 27 years.” ~ Treyce Montoya, MPsyD – Psychologist and forensic handwriting expert

I asked Treyce whether someone else could have written some or all of the notes and her response was,

If he did not write them all – someone else is just as suicidal and likely related to him since the similarities [between notes]that I did notice are dead-on.” ~ Treyce Montoya, MPsyD – Psychologist and forensic handwriting expert

In addition, as you will see — at the end of this article, in the minute by minute timeline of Mike’s last day, Mike was a very busy man and according to Treyce,

I cannot give you a timeline per se [as to when exactly he wrote each note], but he is extremely suicidal on all of them. Because he felt euphoric because of that decision, he could have very easily written those over a more extended timeframe. He could have easily done his last show after he wrote the notes – especially if he did not want anyone to be suspicious of his intent and/or try to prevent it. The “Rags” note was euphoric – his decision was made and he was happy and at peace so it was likely very close to the end of his life.” ~ Treyce Montoya, MPsyD – Psychologist and forensic handwriting expert


Mike’s Suicide

Some will argue whether taking one’s own life is a God given right or a Godforsaken sin. I am not here to argue anything. I am here only to share the facts as I know them in order to help clear some of the ongoing speculation and/or denial surrounding Mike’s suicide. Your feelings on his final act will mostly be filtered through whatever are your own spiritual beliefs, but mental health is a disease of the brain that affects how those who suffer with it think and more importantly feel.

Suicidal Ideation brought on by Depression, Bipolar and/or PTSD is debilitating. The thoughts and planning are ever present. In the phone, Doug Lewis described it well when he called it “perennial planning” because it is.

Many people are having trouble understanding why Mike would do this when it appeared things were looking up for him; a new show, a new woman, a new life and more. John Lennon’s words from long ago were not meant in this context however, they perfectly describe that aspect of Suicidal Ideation.

Life is what happens to you, while you’re busy making other plans.” ~ John Lennon

While Mike spent more than a decade planning his death, he still went on living life as if otherwise. Suicidal Ideation is an appendage only the bearer can see. I hope these writings will help open minds, eyes and hearts to a point of understanding of how painful and pervasive it can be.


On April 13, 2014 Michael C. Ruppert ended his battle; not with the Government or the “elite”, but with his own mind. It is not up to us to judge and the speculation over alternative possibilities as to how he died, need to stop.

Mike was an ex-cop and In Truth and Lies of 9/11 he taught us the importance of  going about our truth-telling,

There is a procedure that you follow, when you are presenting evidence. There is a way that you structure evidence to avoid speculation.” ~ MCR, Truth and Lies of 9/11

Mike hated “conspiracies” and especially in relation to himself. Unfounded speculation and the ensuing virility of that speculation – on any given subject, were the very things that exasperated and infuriated Mike for years and the thing he hoped to avoid in his own death.

None of us knew more about a crime scene than Mike. Not only did Mike go about his life’s work as if each story was a case; planning his own his death wasn’t any different.

The estimated “official” time of death – along with the toxicology results will be included when the final Coroner’s report comes out. The report is expected to contain the same information as their initial preliminary report which was:

Mike died of a single gunshot wound to the right temple which exited the left side of his head. When authorities arrived they pronounced him dead at 9:05 PM. This is not Mike’s actual time of death, just when he was “declared” deceased. Be warned, the language in the preliminary report is graphic.

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I can also give you a timeline of the events as they are documented from all that Mike did on late afternoon Saturday, April 12 and all day Sunday April 13 up to the point of taking his life.

It has been determined by me and others, that it is very unlikely Mike could have written all of the handwritten notes as well as at least one email and a FaceBook post – which were also suicide “notes”, from the time he completed his last show on The Lifeboat Hour to the time he died.

Understanding this probability, one must then understand he most likely had hosted his entire final show knowing he was going to take his life afterwards.

That’s heavy.

It is especially heavy to those Mike had been interacting with on the phone, online and in person those last two-days.

In addition, some that were close to Mike – much closer to him than I, believe he didn’t make the decision to take his life until sometime Sunday afternoon. The contents of the message Mike left in his note to Jessy Re` said clearly,

I did not decide until today.


I did not know until today.”

It should be reminded that Jessy Re` had just left Calistoga the day before. She had been visiting with Mike on her way to visit her child’s father in Oregon.

There are other people close to Mike who, like myself, believe Mike had at least been heavily contemplating as early as late Saturday afternoon if not in fact already putting his plan into motion and saying his goodbyes. What I am going to show you is what Mike did before he took his life and fill in some of the blanks left behind by Jack and others.

You can determine for yourself based on the evidence I have collected – with much appreciated help, in the timeline below.


The Scene

As you will [or may have already] seen in the video Wesley Miller filmed of Jack Martin walking you through the area of the property where Mike lived and died. Jack discusses the timeline of how it unrolled after Mike took his life. The video helps give more perspective to the scene itself. The video is not of Mike or any “crime scene” left behind. Everything has been cleaned up. You will also notice the bottle of alcohol on the shelf behind Jack as he is talking from inside the trailer.

Jack’s property was only 2 ½ acres and there were several people living on or working on the property at all times.

On the outside of Mike’s trailer there were two handwritten notes. They were not taped on the door as I had earlier reported when I released the Second series of notes, and were instead taped just to the right of the door. Both of these notes were the notes Mike meant specifically for anyone that approached the trailer to see; one was instructions not to go inside or touch anything; the other a prayer or poem Mike wrote that is similar in language to all of the message had Mike left behind, except the one he left with his dog “Rags” inside of his Lincoln.


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On the inside of the trailer there were two notes; one was addressed specifically to Jessy Re` and the other to Jack. I shared the letter written to Jack when I released the first note. I will not be sharing the letter written to Jessy Re` as it belobgs to her and is personal. Also inside the trailer Mike had left out his Will which had a list of people for Jack to contact.




Mike was a very busy man over the weekend, particularly on the day he passed away. He spent a lot of time on Facebook. I am not going to list every single  “like”, “share”, “comment” or “post” Mike made, he was as prolific in the Facebook world as he was anywhere else. I am also not going to add in the times of him playing Backgammon on Facebook, which he played quite a lot of.

April 12, 2014

10:27 AM PST Mike “Likes” this Video posted on his FaceBook wall.



3:07 PM PST Mike called his good friend Guy McPherson and spoke with him for 3 minutes and 48 seconds.

Mike called me Saturday night as I was about to deliver a presentation. He told me he loved me and respected my work. We spoke for only a few minutes. Now I know he was calling to say goodbye.” ~ Guy McPherson

7:13 PM PST  Mike posts Terrence McKenna’s, Opening the Doors of Creativity. His words and those he quotes are quite profound. Mike’s decision had been made.


7:39 PM PST Mike comments in his Terrence McKenna post. It is obvious Mike is contemplating heavy things this night.


8:39 PM PST Mike references both Mimi German’s post and Chante Pierce’s post and says, the “women are leading”. He tags several individuals.


9:41 PM PST  Mike “Likes” Chante Pierce’s Edgar Cayce post about End Time prophecies.


9:42 PM PST  Mike “Likes” Mimi German’s post about the, “Con”.

I believe, as early as Saturday, April 12, Michael C. Ruppert was already putting his  plan in motion. Mike knew he would have the property where he lived, to himself the next evening. He knew Jack’s family would be gone.

Mike has had the means and motive, but now, he had the opportunity.

APRIL 13, 2014

8:49 AM PST  Mike makes his first post of the day with a link about the importance of the Bundy Ranch issue (he makes several posts and comments on the Bundy Ranch situation throughout the day).

9:41 AM PST  Mike emails Jack talking about needing to make an appointment to get his car fixed and get a ride to do so. He ends the email with, “Beautiful day.”

9:42 – 9:46 AM PST  AM Brief phone call with Jessy Re`

12 PM PST  Mike emails Mimi German and Carolyn Baker about the upcoming show that night

12:16 PM PST  Mike calls bullshit on a Guardian article about climate change.

12:41 PM PST  Mike emails Mimi German and Carolyn Baker again about upcoming show and says to them, “Let’s give the people some empathy tonight.”

12:45 PM PST  Mike posts to Mimi that he is “calling [her] now”.


2:15PM – 3:15PM PST  (APX) Jack visits with Mike on the property in the 1100 block of Tubbs Lane, Calistoga, CA.

3:19 PM PST  Mike shares a link to oil pipeline story


3:28 PM PST Mike posts this in his thread about the Bundy Ranch.


3:41 PM PST Mike comments in the Bundy Ranch thread again and has this exchange.

3:44 PM PST Mike emails Mimi German and Carolyn Baker about the upcoming show however; in this email Mike ends with, “I’ll have one song at the bottom of the show. We all know what to do.”

4 PM PST Mike sent an email to Jessy Re`to say, “I love you.”

4:08 PM PST Mike “Likes” a photo on Guy McPherson’s wall. The photo is of Guy taken the night before, after a presentation at the University of Rhode Island. Mike called Guy before this presentation.

4:40 PM PST Mike posts Gary Null’s link promoting Mike’s show that night.


6:04 PM PST The Lifeboat Hour radio show begins

6:43 PM PST Mike posts this


7 PM PST The Lifeboat Hour radio show ends

7:04 PM PST Mike “Likes” Ali “Maverick” Thomas’ post on his wall


7:04 PM PST Mike “Likes” Mimi German’s post on his wall.

7:34 PM PST Mike makes a very dramatic, violently dire final post on his FaceBook wall. Notice how he signs off. That phrase is in the Lakota language and means, “we are all related”.


7:35 PM PST Mike emails 12 of his closest friends – all CC’s on his “Prayer”. Mimi German and Ali Maverick Thomas are 2 of the 12, the others are redacted for their privacy and/or because there was not time to get their consent before this publication.


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7:35 PM PST At least – of the 12 individuals CC’d, it is confirmed that at least, Mimi German and Ali “Maverick” Thomas received Mike’s email of his prayer in real-time. They were online when Mike sent it. According to both, they took it “metaphorically”.

7:45 PM PST Mike emails Jack Martin


8:30 PM PST (APX) Jack Martin first sees Mike’s email. He and his family leave in two vehicles to property.

8:43 PM PST (APX) Jack Martin arrives at the property — approximately 60-seconds behind his daughter who had driven to the end of the long driveway to the back of the property where Mike’s trailer was located and was returning back down the driveway when Jack was pulling in. They stopped in opposite directions where Jack’s son-in-law told Jack, “It doesn’t look good Jack”.

8:44 PM PST (APX) Jack drove straight to the “blue and white GMC” (as mentioned in Mike’s email) and because of his headlights he saw a body on the ground. Jack did not realize or even think the body on the ground belonged to Mike.

8:45 PM PST (APX) Jack goes to the trailer looking for Mike. In his haste and in the dark, Jack did not notice the two notes Mike had carefully taped to the trailer door.

Immediately upon entering the trailer, Jack saw two notes; one note for him and the other for Jessy Re`. He immediately called 911 at that point, realizing what happened.

8:47 PM PST (APX) Jack heads to the blue and white GMC where he’d seen a body

8:49 PM PST Jack  calls 911

9:05 PM PST (APX) One local Calistoga police officer arrives to secure Jack and the scene while waiting for Napa County Sheriff’s to arrive (the property is outside of Calistoga city limits and local Calistoga officials had no jurisdiction). Mike is pronounced dead on the scene.

9:17 PM PST One Napa County Sheriff,  that had been in the vicinity arrives on the scene.

10:17 PM PST (APX) PM PST Two Investigators arrive from Napa County

It was shortly before midnight when Mike’s body was removed and the authorities left the property.


Final Thoughts…

Case closed.

There is no conspiracy here. There is however, an important message, Mike’s last warning and it is loud and clear,

There is no more time.”

Mike’s message was about doing. He had already given us the knowledge, ad nauseam.

Knowing about things and doing something — not only about them, but also to prepare for them, i.e. the Lifeboat, are two different things. Too many times he taught and fought, to give us everything his brilliant mind had to offer, so that we, “the children”; the custodians; the caretakers; the stewards of this planet, which is a gift from, “the Mother”, could stop what has only become – to Mike, over the course of his lifetime of studies, the inevitable collapse.

The excesses and excuses of the world were too much for Mike. Mike didn’t want a follower, he wanted a teammate walking the walk alongside him literally doing the work, but even Mike himself realized in the end, that he too was wholly unprepared for the reality of what we were facing and his personal demons and troubles with addictions got the best of him.

We have all heard Mike say the end was, “happening now”. In addition, if you were to ask him when exactly, he would say, ‘It’s happening now, yesterday, and tomorrow.”

We heard his dire warnings many times over the years. The mechanisms and the madness driving us to collapse had been upon us for a long time and what Mike was trying to tell us is we needed to do something to prepare now, not just talk about it.

As most people do when they are faced with impending death, Mike prepared himself spiritually, especially and most specifically while he was in Colorado. Mike embraced the Native American faith(s) and their ways of living and although what he did was not the true meaning of their ceremonial flesh offering, by extension of the sentiment behind it, Mike had finally found comfort in taking action on his deep-rooted and long-time desire to end his life.

When Mike’s body was found, laying on the ground above his head was the feather I mentioned before. The feather was given to him by his mentor while in Colorado and it was Mike’s most prized possession at the time of his death. He had kept the feather in a special place in the trailer and had only the week before shown it to Jack and told him it’s significance.

Few people knew about the feather or what it meant to Mike.


NOTE: Thank you to Carolyn Baker, Wesley Miller, Guy McPhereson, Andrea Long, Jessy Re` Pulver, Andy Capper, Wonder Bob, Mimi German,  Stephanie Combden, and Doug Lewis. Extra special thanks to Jack Martin, Ali “Maverick” Thomas and Jenna Orkin. I couldn’t have done this without all of you. Thank you. ORIGINAL SOURCE